Sermon 1366. The Danger of Unconfessed Sin
BY C. H. SPURGEON,
AT THE METROPOLITAN TABERNACLE, NEWINGTON.
"When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the daylong." Psalm 32:3.
IT is well known that in ordinary cases grief which is kept within the bosom grows more and more intense. It is a very greatrelief to shed tears-it gives a vent to the heart. We sometimes pity those who weep, but there is a grief too deep for tearswhich is far more worthy of compassion-we ought most to pity those who cannot weep. A dry sorrow is a terrible one, but clearshining often follows the rain of tears. Tears are hopeful things. They are the dewdrops of the morning foretelling the comingday. So is it, also, a very great consolation to tell your story to a friend. I do not know whether it would not be a comfort,even, to speak it to a little child, even if the child could not understand you.
There is something in telling your sorrow and letting it out, otherwise it is like a mountain lake which has no outlet, intowhich the rains descend and the torrents rush and, at last, the banks are broken and a flood is caused. It is well for youto let your soul flow forth in words as to your common griefs! A festering wound is dangerous. Many have lost their reasonbecause they had good reason to tell their sorrows, but had not reason enough to do so. Much talk has in it much of sin, buta heart full of agony must speak or burst. Therefore let it talk on and even repeat itself, for in so doing it will spenditself-
And spends its bitterness in tears. My child of sorrow, Weep out the fullness of Your passionate grief, And drown in tearsThe bitterness of lonely years." We shall now, however, think of spiritual sorrows and to these the same rule applies. "WhenI kept silence," and did not pour out my sorrow when I ought to have confessed it, "my bones waxed old through my roaringall the day long." Is it not a great mercy for us that we have the Book of Psalms and the life of such a man as David? Biographiesof most people, nowadays, are like the portraits of a past generation when the art of flattery in oils was at its height.There is no greater cheat than a modem biography! It is not the man, at all, but what he might have been if he had not beensomething else! They give you a lock of his hair, or his wig, or his old coat, but seldom the man.
They make huge volumes out of a heap of his letters which ought to have been burned. And they copy little scraps of pictureswhich he used to draw for friends-and neither the letters nor the sketches ought ever to have been published. Like burglars,they break into a man's chamber and steal his hidden things. They hold up to the public eye what was meant for privacy, only,and expose the secrets of the man's heart and hearth. Things which the man would never have drawn or written if he had thoughtthat they would meet the public eye are dragged forth and brought out as precious things, and so they are, but precious nonsense!
We have no biographers nowadays. When Boswell died, the greatest of all biographers died, and he was not far removed froma fool. If a man lives a noble life, he may well shrink from dying, because he knows what will become of him, nowadays, whenwriters of his memoirs unearth him and tear him to pieces! David's Psalms are his best memorial. There you have not the man'sexterior, but his inward soul. They do not reveal the outward manifestations of the man, but you see the man's heart-the innerDavid, the David that groaned and the David that wept! You see the David that sighed and the David that sinned-the David thatyearned after God, and the David that was eaten up with the zeal of God's house-the man who was born in sin and groaned oversin and was yet the man after God's own heart. What a wonderful autobiography of a wonderful life that Book of Psalms is!
David was a many-sided man and his life was like the life of our Lord in this respect-that it seemed to comprehend the livesof all other men within itself. There is no man, I suppose, who has known the Lord in any age since David wrote but has seenhimself in David's Psalms as in a mirror and has said to himself, "This man knows all about me. He has been into every roomof my soul-into its lowest cellar and into its loftiest tower. He has been with me in the dens of my inbred sin and in thepalaces of my fellowship with Christ, from which I have looked upon the Glory of God." Here is a man who "seems to be, notone, but all mankind's epitome."
Though we mourn over David's sin, yet we thank God that it was permitted, for if he had not so fallen, he had not been ableto help us when we are conscious of transgression. He could not have so minutely described our griefs if he had not felt thesame. David lived, in this respect, for others as well as for himself. I am thankful that David was permitted to try the experimentof silence after his great sin, for he will now tell us what came of it-"When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through myroaring all the day long."
We shall apply this first, as it should be, to the erring child of God convicted of his sin. Secondly, we shall remind youthat the same rule holds good with the awakened sinner in whom the Spirit of God has begun to work a sense of guilt.
I. First, LET US THINK OF THE CHILD OF GOD. Children of God sin! Some of them have claimed to be well-near free from it but-Iwill say no more-but I think they sinned when they talked in such a lofty strain. God's children sin, for they are still inthe body. If they are in a right state of heart they will mourn over this and it will be the burden of their lives. Oh thatthey could live without sin! It is this that they sigh after and they can never be fully content until they obtain it. Theydo not excuse themselves by saying, "I cannot be perfect," but they feel that their inability is their sin. They regard everytransgression and tendency to sin as a grievous fault and they mourn over it from day to day. They would be holy as Christis holy. To will is present with them, but how to perform that which they would, they find not.
Now, when the child of God sins, the proper thing for him to do is at once to go and tell his heavenly Father. As soon asever we are conscious of sin, the right thing is not to begin to reason with the sin, or to wait until we have brought ourselvesinto a proper state of heart about it, but to go at once and confess the transgression unto the Lord, then and there. Sinwill not come to any very great head in a man's heart who does this continually. God will never have great chastisements instore for those who are quick confessors of sin.
You know how it is with your child. There has been something broken, perhaps, by carelessness. There has been some violationof a rule of the house. But if he comes and catches you by the sleeve and says, "Father," or, "Mother, I am very sorry thatI have been doing wrong"-why, you know, while you are sorry that he should transgress, you are glad to think that his heartis so right that without being questioned he comes of his own accord and tells you so frankly that he was wrong. Whatevergrief you may feel about his fault, you feel a greater joy in the frankness of his confession and the tenderness of his conscience!And you have forgiven him, I am sure, before he has got half way through his open-hearted acknowledgment. You feel that youcannot be angry with so frank and penitent a child.
Though sometimes you may have to put on a sour look, shake your head and reprimand and scold a little, yet if the little eyesfill with tears and the confession becomes still more open and the sorrow still more evident-it is not hard to move you togive the child a kiss and send him away with, "Go and sin no more. I have forgiven you." Our heavenly Father is a much moretender Father than any of us and, therefore, if we, being evil, know how to give good gifts to our children, how much moreshall our heavenly Father forgive us our trespasses? "Like as a father pities his children, so the Lord pities them that fearHim" and, therefore, He has compassion upon the children of men when they acknowledge their offenses. We are not more readyto forgive our children than our heavenly Father is ready to forgive us! We may be quite sure of that.
And so, if it is our habit-and I trust it is-never to suffer guilt to lie upon our consciences, but to go as soon as we aresensible of a fault and admit it before the Lord, asking pardon from Him for Jesus' sake, there will be no great amount ofdamage done to ourselves and the Lord's anger will not wax hot against us and neither will severe chastisements happen tous. We may endure sharp afflictions, because they are often sent for another purpose, but we shall not have visitations ofpaternal wrath. Many trials are not sent for chastisements at all, but as preparations for higher usefulness-for every branchthat bears fruit He purges, evidently not because of any offense in the branch, but
even because the branch is good and bears fruit and, therefore, it is allowed the special privilege of the pruning knife thatit may bring forth more fruit.
Speedy and full confession will not prevent tribulations which are meant merely for instruction, but it will avert trialswhich are intended as severe chastisements-and this will be no small benefit. Did not David pray, "O Lord, rebuke me not inYour wrath, neither chasten me in Your hot displeasure"? Now, it sometimes happens that God's children, when they have donewrong-especially if they have done very, very wrong-do not go and confess it. When there is the most necessity for confession,there is often the greatest tardiness in making it. It was so in David's case. Alas, how foully had he fallen! It is neverto any purpose to try and excuse David's sin.
There are certain extenuating circumstances, but he never mentioned them and, therefore, we need not. Indeed, if David werehere, tonight, and we were to begin excusing his sin, he would rise with tears in his eyes and say, "For God's sake do notattempt it! Let it stand in all its deformity, that the power of God's mercy may be the more clearly seen in washing me andmaking me whiter than snow." But David's heart, sometimes, was very evil. It was sound towards God as a rule. There was deeplove to God always there, but it had become overlaid and crusted with what was always David's great besetment-the strong passionsof his impulsive nature.
He had followed, in some measure, the ill example of neighboring kings in taking a number of wives to himself and this hadfed, rather than checked, his natural tendencies. And at last, in an evil hour, he fell into a crime of deepest dye. He knewthat he was doing wrong. He sinned against light and knowledge but, alas, he did not hasten to his God and confess the grievouscrime. I think I can see why he could not have gone straight away from the sin to confession, for the sin prevented the confession-thesin blinded the eyes, stultified the conscience and stupefied the entire spiritual nature of David. Hence He did not confessat once, but surely he felt as if he must admit the fault when the time came for prayer.
I have no doubt that David prayed after a sort, but he must have presented very formal and mutilated prayers so long as herefused to acknowledge his transgression. When the time came for David to finger his harp, perhaps he did so and went througha song or a Psalm. But he could never reach to the essence of true praise by pouring out his heart before God while the foulsin was hidden in his bosom. How could he? His Psalms and his prayers were silence before God, whatever sound he made-forhis heart did not speak and God would not hear him.
However sweet the tone or the tune, his songs were nothing to the Most High, for his heart was silent. And why was he silentwhen he knew that he was wrong? Why did he not go to God at once? Well, it was partly because he was stupefied by his sin.He was fascinated, captivated and held in bondage by it. Oh, Brothers and Sisters, beware of the serpent eye of sin! It isdangerous to even look at sin, for looking leads to longing. A look at sin often leads to a lusting after sin and that soonripens into the actual indulgence. No man even thinks of sin without damage!
I saw a magnificent photograph in Rome, one of the finest I had ever seen, and right across the middle there was the spectermark of a cart and two oxen repeated many times. The artist had tried to get it out, but the trace remained. While his platewas exposed to take the view, the cart and the oxen had gone across the scene and they were indelible! Often in the photographof a fine building you will see the shade of a man who passed by who is represented by a sort of ghostly figure. Upon oursoul every sinful thought leaves a mark and a stain that calls for us to weep it out-no, it needs Christ's blood to wash itaway!
We begin with thinking of sin and then we somewhat desire the sin. Next we enter into communion with the sin and then we getinto the sin-and the sin gets into us and we lie as oak in it. So David did. He did not feel it at first, but there he was,plunged into the evil deeps. In such a state sin does not appear burdensome. A man with a pail of water on his head feelsit to be heavy, but if he dives, he does not feel the weight of the water above him because he is actually in it and surroundedby it. When a man plunges into sin, he does not feel the weight of the sin as he does when he is out of that dreadful element-butthen, by God's Grace, he is burdened by it. So David did not feel His guilt at first. He knew that he had done wrong, buthe did not perceive the exceeding heinousness of his evil deed and, therefore, he did not confess it.
Next, there was much pride in David's heart. Have you a child who, when he has offended, knows he is wrong, but will not admitit? If so, you talk to him, but he will not speak. He is quite silent, or, if he does speak, it is not in the right way. Hemakes some naughty, obstinate, strong-headed speech. You cannot bring him to say, "Father, I have done wrong." He tries toexcuse himself in this way and that. Perhaps he partly denies the fault and only mentions certain things that other peopledid, by way of excuse for himself.
Now, what our children do to us we have often done to God! We have sullenly stood it out before Him. I remember well a storyof a reputable Christian man who, on a certain occasion, was betrayed into drinking. He was a long time in distress of mindabout his sin. He had been drunk, but when he was spoken to about it, as he was, by some of the officers of the Church, hesaid that he was, "overtaken" and added that, "a very little affected him." I think that is what he said. And he pleaded thatsome others had been overtaken, too, and he did not see why such notice should be taken of a little slip. All this he saidto leave a loophole for himself. When he had done saying that, he would add-Well, he did not know. He did not believe thathe was drunk. He was sure that nobody could prove that he was, though he might have taken a little more than was good forhim.
His tongue talked in that way, but his heart knew better! He was a child of God and he knew he was wrong. He never got peaceby making these shocking self-defenses. He was, indeed, terribly tortured in his soul, till, at last he went down on his kneesand said, "Lord, I have been drunk. There is no use in denying it. I, who am Your servant, have been drunk. Forgive me, forYour mercy's sake, and keep me, from now on, from even tasting of the intoxicating cup." He honestly confessed his transgressionand a sweet sense of pardon followed at once! It takes some professors a long time to get up to that point. We call our sinby some other name and fancy that it is not quite so bad in us as it would be in others.
Oh, the ways we have got of trying to extenuate! And, oh, the sullenness which has sometimes been put on and carried out fordays and days together before the living God by God's children when they have fallen into an ill-temper. I have no doubt thatsome have been silent before God for a time as to the confession of their wrong because of fear. They could not believe that,after all, their Father loved them! They thought that if they did confess they would receive a heavy sentence and be overwhelmedwith wrath. David had often looked up into the face of God and known His love-but now that he had thrown dust into his owneyes, he could not see God's face.
He only felt God's chastening hand, for He says, "Day and night Your hand was heavy upon me. My moisture is turned into thedrought of summer." The sun burned him up, but afforded him none of the sunshine of the face of God. Unbelief is sure to followsin of the kind committed by David. When it has brought on sullenness of temper, then we begin to think that God deals harshlywith us, whereas it is we that are dealing harshly with Him. If we would confess, all would be well-but there is the toughpart! It is not, if He would forgive, for He is ready to blot out the transgressions of His people-the difficulty lies inif we would believe in His love!
There is a great deal of the Pharisee in many Christians. You may question the statement, but I should not wonder if thereis a good deal of the Pharisee in you, or else you would not have doubted the assertion. You are so much of a Pharisee thatyou do not think yourself a Pharisee! But we are prone to begin thinking, "Surely, surely, I, at such a time was a worthyobject of God's love, but now I am not." Oh, then, you were once a wonder of goodness and marvelously worthy and excellent?Do not believe it! My dear Brother, perhaps you were as bad when you had not openly transgressed as you are now, for thenyour disease may have taken the form ofpride, and though it has now taken another shape, it may be no worse, for pride isas damnable as any other form of sin. He who says to Himself, "I am righteous. I can stand before God and deserve His love,"is as surely lost as though he had fallen into gross sin. Take heed of the Pharisee that lurks within you!
Anyway, whatever was the reason, David was silent about his sin for a long time. The result of it was that his sorrow becameworse and worse. He could not pray. He tried to pray, but as he would not confess his sin, it stuck in his throat. And tillthat was out, he could not pray. But still he must pray. So he took to roaring. That is to say, it was such inarticulate,indistinct prayer and there was so much of his soul in it that he calls it the roaring of a beast instead of the praying ofa man! His inward grief over his unconfessed sin was such that his bones began to wax old. They are the pillars of the house,the strongest part of the entire system-but even they seemed as if they would decay.
He was brought into ill health of body through the torment of his mind. He could find no peace and yet he would not go andconfess the sin! He was still sullenly looking up to God, not as a sinner, but as a saved one and talking to God as if hewere righteous-while at the same time his sin was crushing him. All this while, I say, his grief gathered and there was onlyone cure for it-he ought to have confessed it to the Lord. As soon as it was confessed he was forgiven. How quick was thatact of amnesty and oblivion! David said, "I have sinned," and Nathan said, "The Lord has put away your sin. You shall notdie."
If pardon is so near at hand, who would linger a moment? Who among us would not, at once, repair to our heavenly Father and,with our head in his bosom sob out the confession of our sin? Because He is so ready to forgive we ought to be ready to confess!I may be addressing a child of God, or one who thought that he was a child of God, who has grievously fallen. My Brothersand Sisters, go with haste to your Lord and acknowledge your iniquity! He bids you come. Only confess your iniquity in whichyou have transgressed against the Lord and He will have mercy upon you now! And oh, what a relief it is when you have dischargedthe load and when the voice of mercy has said, "You are forgiven. Go in peace."
"What would I give for that," says one. Well, you need not give anything. Do but confess and if you confess into the ear ofGod, with faith in His dear Son, for Jesus' sake He will accept you and seal your pardon home to your soul! Come and unburdenyour spirit at the bleeding feet of the Redeemer-and leap for joy! Thus have I tried to encourage the Lord's own childrento confess their sins. I do not know for whom these words are particularly meant, but I am driven to say them, for I laborunder the strong impression that there is some child of God here who is almost despairing of the Lord's mercy and who is wellnear ready to renounce his profession of religion because he fears that the Lord's mercy is clean gone forever.
My dear Friend, judge not so harshly of Him who still loves you! Did He not love us when we were dead in trespasses and sins?And will He not love us if now our sin has wounded us again? He never loved us because we were good and, therefore, as Heknew all that we should be, He will not change in His affection. He "commends His love to us in that, while we were yet sinners,Christ died for the ungodly"-died for us as SINNERS! If you never did come to Him-if all your religion has been a mistake-donot begin to argue upon that matter, but come to Jesus now, for the first time! Many and many a score of times have I donethat! When the devil has said, "Your faith has been mere delusion and your experience has been all a fiction," I have replied,"I will not dispute with you, Sir Devil, but I will just go to Christ as a sinner, for I know He came to seek and to savesinners, even lost ones, such as I am. And I will humbly ask Him anew to be my Savior."
That is a short cut to comfort! May the Spirit lead you into it! Be not baffled by Satanic suggestions, but come to Jesusagain, and again, and again, "to whom coming as unto a living stone"-looking unto Jesus-not having looked once, but continuallylooking and trusting in Him!
II. But now I must have a few minutes, while we use this same subject in reference TO THE AWAKENED SINNER. Some in this place,perhaps, have lately been awakened to a consciousness of guilt before God. But one thing they have not done-they have nevermade confession of their sin. They feel the burden of it, in a measure, and they will feel it more, but as yet they have kepttheir grief to themselves. Neither to God nor man have they poured out their souls. To speak to our fellow men about our hearttroubles is comparatively of little use and yet, I would not recommend persons under conviction of sin always to hide theirsouls' sorrows from their Christian friends.
They might often be much helped if they would communicate their thoughts to those who have gone further on the road to Heavenand know more about Christ and the way of salvation. Yet, for the most part, a wounded conscience, like a wounded stag, delightsto be alone that it may bleed in secret. It is very hard to get at a man under conviction of sin. He retires so far into himselfthat it is impossible to follow him. Ah, you poor mourners, I know how you try to conceal your pains! I will tell you onereason why you do not like to tell your mother, your sister, your brother. It is because you think your feelings are so strange-yousuppose that nobody ever felt like you-you have the notion that you must be the worst person that ever lived and, therefore,you are ashamed to tell what you feel for fear your friends should kick you out of their society.
Ah, poor Soul. You do not know! You do not know! We have all been on your road. When you tell of your sin, you put us in memoryof the way in which we talked, perhaps 25 years ago, or more, when we, too, felt sin a burden as you feel it now. When youtell us of the greatness of your sin and think that we shall surely despise you and never speak to you again, tears of joyare in our eyes to think that you feel as we did! We are glad to discover your tender and contrite spirit-we only wish thatthousands felt as you do! Do you not remember what George Whitefield said when his brother at the dinner able said that hewas a lost soul? Mr. Whitefield said, "Thank God," and his brother wondered why.
"Why?" said Whitefield, "Jesus came into the world to seek and to save that which was lost." The more black you think yourselfto be, the brighter is our hope of you! When you poor tremblers give yourselves an awful character, we
know it is correct and we do not wish to contradict you, but we are glad to hear you say it and to know that you feel it,because now we see in you that which will prepare you to value a precious Christ! A man who says, "I am well clothed," isnot likely to accept Christ's righteousness. But when he cries, "How naked I am, how useless are these fig leaves," He isthe man for Christ's robes!
When you meet with a man who says, "I am full. I feast on my own righteousness," what is the good of inviting him to the Gospelbanquet? You must invite him, for you are commanded to do so, but he will refuse to come. But when you meet with another whois hungry, faint and ready to die-ah, there is the man for your money! Bid him come where the oxen and the fatlings are killedand all things are ready! His mouth is watering while you speak to him and he will come with you and sit down at the banquetof the King! We are glad, poor Sinner, to hear your tale and, therefore, the next time you meet with a Christian, I wouldadvise you to tell him a little of it.
But still, that is not what you most need. You need to lay bare your deep sorrow before your God and, oh, if you do it, therestands the promise, "He that confesses and forsakes his sins shall find mercy." Confession before God was never sincerelyoffered but absolution from the Most High was sure to follow! Remember, even though you do not go and tell the Lord, He knowsalready and, therefore, concealment is in vain! He needs not your confession for His information, but for your benefit. Andif you do not confess to Him, you certainly will never obtain pardon, for there is not between the covers of the holy Biblea single intimation that God will ever pardon unconfessed sin! If you cover and cloak it-and feel no repentance about it anddo not bring it to Christ-you cannot expect to receive mercy from the offended Lord.
Now, it happens with some, that, though they are conscious of sin, they do not confess it. And what is the result? Why, itincreases their misery! It is impossible that you should find peace while sin continues to gather in your soul. It is a festeringwound-the surgeon's knife must be let in, there cannot be rest until it is so. I have known a sinner, before confession ofsin, feel as if he could lay violent hands upon himself, so intense was his anguish. Well do I remember repeating to myselfthe words of the Prophet, "My soul chooses strangling rather than life," for of all the tortures in this world, an awakenedconscience, pressed down with a sense of guilt, is the worst!
The Spanish Inquisition invented cruel racks and thumbscrews, but there is no inquisitor like a man's own conscience, forit can put the screw upon the soul to the uttermost degree. Let a man's conscience loose upon him and at once the worm commencesto gnaw and the fire begins to burn. They used, in olden times, to ascribe the torment of Hell to the devil-but we do notneed any devil for that-conscience can measure out an infinite misery. Let but remorse lay its thongs of wire upon a man andit will scar him and gash him to the very soul! So long as a man continues silent before God and does not admit his sin-ifthe Lord has really begun to deal with him-he will have to suffer more and more from the pangs of conscience.
But then, increase of sorrow accompanied by this silence is a very dangerous piece of business. I spoke cheeringly just nowof those of you who are under a sense of sin, but it was only in the hope that you would go to God, through Jesus Christ,and confess your sin. But if you refuse to do so, your position is one of very great danger. "What danger?" you ask. Why,if sin remains festering within you and your sorrow increases, you will come to despair altogether-and that is an awful prospect,indeed. You remember John Bunyan's picture of the man in the iron cage? There is not, in the "Pilgrim's Progress," an incidentmore terrible!
Now, you are forging the bars of a cage for yourself as long as you refuse to acknowledge your guilt before God. Those whoare in the iron cage of despair will tell you that they delayed to acknowledge sin, that they refused to accept Christ, thatthey suppressed their feelings and so brought themselves into bondage. They were pleased to hear ministers preach about convictionof sin and speak of deep sorrow and the like-but they did not care to be told that it was their duty, then and there, to believein Jesus! They could not endure that doctrine! They liked to be comforted in the notion that there was something good in feelinga sense of sin, apart from believing-whereas, if a soul will not believe in Christ, its sense of sin may be an evil insteadof a benefit to it!
Nothing can be good that is unsalted with faith. "With all your sacrifices you shall offer salt." And if the salt of faithis absent, the sacrifice is unacceptable. We have known some who, through getting into despair, have afterwards fallen intoutter hardness of heart. They used to be malleable. They used to feel the strokes of the Divine hammer. Now they feel nothingand are as hard as the blacksmith's anvil. They have got into such a condition that they wickedly say, if God will save themthey will be saved, but they have nothing to do with it. They once were tender-now they are presumptuous.
They say, "there is no hope" and, therefore, on the theory of the old proverb that they may as well be hanged for a sheepas for a lamb, in all probability they will go on to commit worse sins than ever.
Some of the biggest sinners that have ever disgraced the name of humanity have been persons who were once tender of conscienceand were on the point of conversion-but they did violence to conviction, came to despair of ever entering Heaven-and in theend determined that as they must go to Hell, they would go there with a high hand and an outstretched arm! He who has seenHeaven's gate open before him, but has not stepped in, is the man who, above all others, is likely to find the hottest placein Hell!
You may think it strange for me to say so, but I know it is so, for such persons go by the way of despair into hardness ofheart and then into the grossest transgression. Yes, and this is the back door to atheism, for when a man feels that God andhe can never be at peace-when he has made up his mind that he never will confess his sin-what is the first thing that he doesto comfort himself? He says-"There is no God." And what does the declaration, "There is no God," mean? It means this-thatthe man feels that he would be much more happy if there were no God! That is what it means and nothing more. It is the man'swish, rather than his creed, and he wishes it because he despairs and his heart has grown hard.
Oh, when God makes your heart soft as wax, mind who puts the seal upon it! If the Spirit of the living God sets not the sealof deep repentance and holy faith upon the softened soul, there is another that will put the seal of despair and perhaps ofatheism and of defiant sin upon it! And then woe was the day to you that you ever were born! Refusal to confess is a perilousthing for your soul! I am sure that when a man begins to be awakened to a sense of sin, if he tarries long in that condition,he is being entangled, moment by moment, in the Satanic web. The devil cares little about careless sinners. "Let them alone,"he says, "they will come to me by-and-by!" And as for very religious people who possess no true godliness, the devil doesnot bother them, either. He says, "No, let the hypocrites be in peace. They are going my way as nicely as possible. Why shouldI awaken them by causing them mistrust as to their state?"
But the moment that souls are startled into a sense of sin, the devil says to himself, "I shall lose them," and so he pliesall his arts and uses all his craft, if by any means he may prevent their escape. Man, now is your time to flee away to theCity of Refuge without tarrying even for an hour, for even now all the devils in Hell are after you! They did not troubleabout you before, but they are after you now with sevenfold energy! Close in with Christ, then, and at once escape them all!Oh, may the Spirit of God enable you to find eternal mercy through the confession of your sin to God and looking to Christfor mercy-the mercy which He is so willing to give now!
This is the last point. There is no hope, then, of any comfort to a bruised heart except by its confessing its guilt. I wouldearnestly urge upon every one conscious of sin to go with troubled heart and heaving bosom and confess his transgression tothe Lord at once. I would do it in detail if I were you. I find it sometimes profitable to myself to read the Ten Commandmentsand to think over my sins against each one of them. What a list it is-and how it humbles you in the dust to read it over!When you come to that Commandment-"You shall not commit adultery," "Ah," you say, "I have never been guilty there." But whenyou are told by the Savior that a lustful glance breaks that command, how it alters
Then you perceive that fleshly desires and imaginations are all sins and you humble yourself in the dust. You read, also,"You shall not kill."-"Well," you say, "I never killed anyone." But you change your tune when you hear that, "He that is angrywith his brother without a cause is a murderer." When you see the spirituality of the Law and the way in which you have brokenall the Commandments 10,000 times over, be sure to confess it all right sorrowfully! I find it good to look all round, sometimes,and think, "I am a father. There are my sins against my children. Have I trained them up for God as I should? I am a husband.There are sins in that relationship. I am an employer. There are sins in that position. How have I acted towards my servants?I am a pastor. How many sins occur in that relationship?"
Why, you will not look around you, if God opens your eyes, without being helped to see what you ought to confess! Take thevery limbs of your body and they will accuse you-sins of the brain in evil thoughts! Sins of the eyes in idle glances! Sinsof this little naughty member, the tongue, which does more mischief than all the rest! There is no member without its ownspecial sins. There are sins of the ear-how often have we heard the Gospel, but heard it in vain? On the other hand, havewe not too often lent a willing ear to unholy words and to wicked stories against our neighbors? I need
not read over the calendar of our offenses from this pulpit-go and write it out in your closet-and pour out a flood of tearsover it.
If yon are willing to confess, everything will help you to confession, and there is good reason for doing it at once. Maythe Holy Spirit work with His most tender influences to melt your heart into contrition! Remember, while you are confessing,that each one of your sins has a world of evil in it. There is a mine of sin in every little sin. You have taken up a spider'snest sometimes-one of those little money-spinner's nests-and you have opened it. What thousands of spiders you find hangingdown and hastening away in many directions! What a myriad of them! So in every sin there is a host of sins. There is a conglomerationof many kinds of evil in every transgression, therefore be humbled on account of each one. Confess your iniquities beforeGod and accept the consequences as being your righteous due.
There stands the block and there is the place for your neck-put it down, and say, "Lord, I submit to my sentence and if Youbid the headsman strike, I cannot complain." Go before God as the citizens of Calais came before the English king, with ropesabout their necks! Submit yourselves to the chastisement due to your offense and then make an appeal ad misericordiam, tothe mercy of God alone, and say, "For Christ's sake-for His blood's sake-have mercy upon me!"
There is no man, woman, or child in this Tabernacle who shall do that tonight who shall be rejected, for, "Him that comesto Me," says Christ, "I will in nowise cast out." And this is the right way of coming-the way of confessing your sin and acknowledgingthe evil of it-and turning to the great Substitute for deliverance! Say that you deserve to be sent to Hell and cast yourselfupon the mercy of God in Christ Jesus, trusting in the great Surety and Sacrifice, and you shall be accepted in and throughHim! This is the way of life and he who runs therein shall find salvation! May the Lord, by His Holy Spirit, lead every oneof you without exception to mourn your sin and rest in Jesus. Amen.