Sermon 2050. A Paradox
Delivered on Lord's-Day Morning, November 4th, 1888, by
C. H. SPURGEON,
At the Metropolitan Tabernacle, Newington
"When I am weak, then am I strong."'2 Corinthians 12:10.
The expression is paradoxical, and seems somewhat singular; yet it was the experience of the apostle Paul, a man of calm spirit,by no means fanciful, a wise man, and far removed from a fanatic. It was the experience of one who was led of the Spirit ofGod, and therefore it was a gracious experience: the experience of one who was a father in Israel, who could safely bid usto be imitators of him, even as he imitated the Lord Jesus Christ; and therefore it was a safeexperience. If we are weak, so was Paul; and if, like him, we are strong in our weakness, we shall be in the best of company.If the same things be seen in us which were wrought in the apostle of the Gentiles, we may join with him in glorying in infirmities,because the power of Christ doth rest upon us, and we may count ourselves happy that with such a saint we can cry, "When Iam weak, then am I strong."
I. Perhaps I can expound the text best if I first TURN IT THE OTHER WAY UP, and use it as a warning.
When I am strong, then am I weak. Perhaps, while thinking of the text thus turned inside out, we shall be getting light upon it to be used when we view itwith the right side outwards, and see that when we are weak, then we are strong.
I am quite sure that some people think themselves very strong, and are not so. Their proud consciousness of fancied strengthis the indication of a terrible weakness. We have among us certain persons who think that they can do all that is needful for their own salvation whenever they please to do so. They can perform all sorts of good works, or at least quite enough to carry them to heaven.Their first idea is that they are to be saved by their own doings; and theyreally expect to be so saved. They may admit that they have a few faults and flaws in their character; but these are sotrifling as to be hardly worth mentioning, and God Almighty is too merciful to be very particular. Their lives have been excellent,their tempers amiable, their manners courteous, their spirit generous, and they quite believe that by keeping on at the samepace they will win the prize: if they do not, who will? The ship of their character is in fine condition; they have noleaks which the pumps cannot keep down; their sails are not rent, and they hope to sail into the haven of peace with aglorious cargo of merit, having an abundant entrance, and hearing a loud, "Well done!" Ah, my friend! that consciousness oflegal strength is a mere delusion, and it will have to be taken out of you. There is no going to heaven that way'by self andthe works of self. Your error is a common one, but it is fatal. I have seen many epitaphs of persons, placed by the mistakenkindness of friends upon their tombstones, which I felt sure would have been sufficient to shut them out of heaven ifthey had been true. These departed worthies do not appear to have been sinners at all: their virtues were superlative, theirfaults non-existent. Such wonderful people would appear from their epitaphs to have flown up to the gates of heaven upon thewings of their own virtues, and to have entered there without a passport of mercy, as burgesses by their own right of theNewJerusalem. I wonder how they would behave themselves in heaven, if they were really admitted there! All the rest are singing,"We have washed our robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb"; but these needed no washing, and so they would belikely to strike up a little song by themselves, and sing, "Our robes never needed washing; we kept them white as snow." Whata discord that would create in the music of the skies! What a division of character and feeling would be found amongcelestials! I cannot see how there could be any harmony of sentiment amongst sinners saved by grace and righteous oneswho owed nothing to mercy, nothing to the atoning sacrifice.
No, my strong and virtuous hearer, you are under a grave delusion. There is a great similarity between your talk and the talkof that religious individual who went up to the temple in our Saviour's days, and, standing before the thrice-holy God, daredto say, "God, I thank thee that I am not as other men are." He was not justified that day, nor will you be. A poor tax-gatherer,despised by himself, and an off-cast from his own people, stood in the temple at the same time,and all that he dared to say was, "God be merciful to me a sinner." This unworthy sinner when to his house justified,while the other worthy person was not accepted. If you think yourselves strong enough to procure heaven by your own efforts,you are ignorantly insulting the cross of Christ, for you seem to insinuate that your virtues can avail you without Jesus.If you really mean this, there is no more venom of rebellion against God in your self-righteousness than in the outward viceof thosewho make no pretence to godliness. For you to put your works in the place of Jesus is a blasphemy against the Saviour'sblood and righteousness. Why needed Christ to die if men could save themselves? Why need he bleed upon the cross if your meritswill suffice to gain you a place among the blessed? There is a fatal weakness in the claim of that man who thinks himselfstrong enough to force his own passage to the throne of God; that weakness lies in the pride which insults the Crucified,thedisloyalty which prefers itself to the royal Saviour.
"Perish the virtue, as it ought'abhorred,
And the fool with it who insults his Lord."
Listen to me a moment, and quit your fancied strength: you, my hearer, cannot keep the law of God, for you have already brokenit. How can you preserve a crystal vase entire when you have already dashed it to atoms? You must now be saved by the meritsand the strength of another, or not at all; for your own merit is out of the question, through past failure. That strengthof yours, upon which you dote so much, is perfect weakness. May the Lord show you this, and make youfaint at heart on that account; for then you shall be strong, with real and saving strength! Now your imaginary strengthis making you really weak, and that boasted merit of yours is shutting you out from true righteousness. He that is strongin the notion of merit is weak even to utter folly before the God of truth.
"Yes," we hear you reply, "there is a gospel way of salvation. We know that there is, for you preach it continually. You tellus that men must repent, and believe the gospel; that they must be renewed in the spirit of their minds, and must both overcomesin, and follow after holiness." Yes, I do say all that; but what do you say to it? Is it really so that you find here a groundfor your own strength? Do you say, "I feel that I can repent whenever I please, and believein Jesus when I choose?" Ah! then I must assure you that when you are strong in that way, you are weak. I never yet knew anybody repent who gloriedin his power to repent; I never yet knew a man heart-broken for sin who boasted that he could break his own heart when andwhere he pleased. "What!" cries one, "surely I can believe in Jesus Christ when I please!" I have not denied that statement,have I? But I tell you that your notion of power to believe is your weakness; and I would rather byhalf hear you cry, with deep solemnity, "Oh, that God would give me faith! Lord, help my unbelief!" Your sense of inabilityto believe in Christ would be a far better token for good, in my judgment, than your present flippant talk about believingwhen you like. Men who are in earnest talk not so: whatever their strength may be, they find it little enough in the hourof need. I beg to assure you that I have never known a man believe in Jesus who trusted that he could so believe; for histrust inhis own believing kept him from trusting to Jesus; but I have known many a poor, struggling soul lie at the cross-foot,and say, "Lord, help me to look to Jesus, and live;" and God has helped him to give that look in which there is eternal life.While he has been praying, his prayer, yes, his weeping prayer, has had in it that very look to Jesus for which he was pleading.His sense of inability to believe has made him look to Jesus for believing, and he has found it in him.
You say that you can turn your heart towards God whenever you please. I am not going into any dispute with you about yourassertion, nor the doctrine, which is supposed to support you in your profession of strength; but I will say this, that youridea of having personal strength, with which to purify and renew your own heart'your idea that you can create in yourselfa right spirit'your idea that you can raise yourself from your death in sin' is to me a prophecy ofmuch evil for yourself. where self is conspicuous, I see an omen of mischief, I see no good in this fine opinion of yourself;but if I heard you cry, "Create in me a clean heart, O God"'if I heard you say, "Lord, quicken me out of my death in sin"'ifI saw you lying down before the Most High, and praying, "Turn me, and I shall be turned"'I should have a far brighter hopeof you. In your weakness you would become strong; but in your present strength, I am sure I see a great weakness, whichis likely to be your ruin. O dear hearts, your best friend does not lie within your own doors. Your hope for better thingsshines yonder at the right hand of God, where the living Saviour has all power given to him in heaven and earth. Sinner, ifyou grow no sweeter flowers than the dunghill of your own nature can nourish, you will die amid poisonous weeds. If you neverdrink of better water than the filthy well of your own heart will yield, you will perish of thirst, or of a deadly draught.Another, and a better helper than one born in your house, must come this way. Help must be laid upon one that is mighty,exalted of the Lord out of the people, and endowed with divine power and Godhead, for only such a Saviour, infinitely goodand great, can save a soul so lost as yours. When you get down, down, down, into utter weakness, then you will be strong,because then you will rest upon the Lord's salvation; but as you are strong in your thoughts of yourself, you are kept fromJesus,and are weakness itself.
So far I have spoken by way of warning to unconverted people.
I desire now to say a word to those who profess to be Christians, and, let us hope, are so; but they are, in a measure, erringin the same way as those to whom I have spoken. They are remarkably strong: at least in their own esteem they are very Samsons,although others fear that the Philistines will capture them. By this token may they know their own weakness'even by this,that they think themselves strong.
First, many are wonderfully strong as to knowledge. They know almost everything. If in any department they are a little short, they make up for it by knowing so much more inthe other direction. If they are too narrow here, they overlap there. They are knowing men, and need no man to tell them so.They are instructed in the faith from pole to pole: they know both that which is afar off, and that which is nigh. An argumentis a pleasure to them. They go into companywhere the eternal verities are denied, and feel a delight in taking sides. They will sit where the vital simplicitiesof God's word are set up like marks for boys to throw at; and they like the amusement, for it exercises their knowing faculty,and gives them a chance of showing their mental power. They are not children, but quite able to think for themselves. Theyare not credulous, but amazingly clear-headed and cultured. I have noticed these fine gentlemen have been the first to denythefaith, and to fall into all manner of heresies. Do you wonder? Those who are so very sure are always the most uncertain.I could instance some that had such confidence in themselves that they would have argued with the very fiend of hell on anyquestion, for they felt that not even Satanic craft could conquer them; but at this present moment the prince of darknessholds them in his power. They hold no controversy with the devil now, for they are very largely agreed with him in assailingthegospel of God's grace. They have gone entirely over to the denial of everything that is gracious and holy and scriptural,and the main cause of their apostasy is their own invincible self-confidence. They were so strong that they became weakerthan others. O brethren, when we are very wise in our own esteem, we are bordering upon fools, even if we have not alreadyentered into that company. When we tremblingly sit at Jesus' feet, to learn everything afresh, and fresh from him; when weshudderat anything that questions his Deity, or lowers his sacrifice; when we shut up a book and cast it from us, because wefeel that it pollutes us with unbelief'then are we wise and strong. When the Word of the Lord is enough, then are we in theway of wisdom and strength. The man of one book is proverbially a terrible mon; but the man of ten thousand books, who canbaffle all adversaries and foil all foes, shall soon lie wounded on the plain, if he be not slain outright. Let us take heeduntoourselves, that we fall not through being headstrong, or strong in the head, which is much the same thing.
Again, I have noticed some professedly Christian people wonderfully strong through experience. Their experience has been very extensive, and the knowledge it has brought them they consider to be specially profound, and,consequently, they are not afraid of temptation, for they feel that they are too wise to be entrapped. They are so experiencednow, that things which young people ought not to think of, they can do with impunity'so they foolishly dream. They can gojust so far, and then stop, for they are fitted with the patent brakes of prudence. They are such good mountain climbersthat they can stand on the edge of a precipice, and look over, and even hang over, without fear of their ever being giddyand falling over. Of course they would not advise other people to go quite so far as they may safely go; but then, what istemptation to other men is no temptation to them. Their vessel is so tight and trim, and they understand navigation so perfectly,that they rather like a tempest than not, just to show how well their vessel can behave in a storm. Ah me! When you nextread the list of wrecks, you may expect to see the name of their ship among the castaways. Old birds may not be caught withchaff, but they can be shot with a gun. No one is out of danger, and no one is more in danger than the man who is carnallysecure. Those who feel that their experience, be it what it may, only teaches them that the farther they can keep from temptationthe better, these are in a better state. When experience drives us to pray with emphasis the prayer "Lead us not intotemptation," then it is working aright. In the idea of strength and wisdom lurks an awfully perilous weakness; but in a senseof personal weakness dwells a real strength. If you are extremely jealous, conscientious, and watchful, many will tell youhow weak you are; but you are, in reality, a strong man, because of your fear to encounter evil influences: in that fear liesoneessential element of holy strength. While he that rather braves temptation, because he feels so strong, shall find, itmay be to his everlasting sorrow, how great his weakness is; he that shuns the appearance of evil, because of conscious weakness,shall find therein his security and strength. Oh, let none of us, because we are getting gray, suppose that we are vulnerableto sin! Let us not dream that because we have been church-members so many years, or even because we have sustained a longand useful ministry, we are therefore beyond gun-shot of the enemy, or without necessity to seek daily strength for dailyduty. My brethren, we cannot perform the smallest duty aright apart from the help of God; neither can we be secure againsteven the grossest sin, apart from the perpetual guard of him that keepeth Israel. If we, in our self-conceit, write ourselvesdown among the mightiest, and forget our entire dependence upon heavenly grace, we may be left to prove, by unhappy experience,that pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.
Let us note another point. I have known certain Christian people who thought themselves singularly strong in the matter of wisdom and prudence. They have been gifted with clear insight and a measure of shrewdness, and have, therefore, felt that their judgment on mostsubjects was that of an umpire. Have you ever noticed that the raw material of a very grossly foolish person is a cautiousindividual? The cunning are the readiest dupes when craft is busy in taking itsprey. So, too, a wise man is needed if there is to be exhibited the worst form of folly. If we were called upon to selecta man who, as to his life as a whole, perpetrated the greatest folly, we should mention Solomon. Yet he was the wisest ofman. Yes, the cream of wisdom, when curdled, makes the worst of folly. Was ever man so insanely enthusiastic in vain pursuitsas this master of all knowledge? Then, brethren, whenever we feel sure of our own superior intelligence, let us suspect ourselvesof weakness. Let the same fear come upon us when we feel sure about our way, so sure that we think we need not pray aboutit, or in any manner wait for divine direction. Beware of those matters in which you think you cannot err. Men who have beenwise in great difficulties have blundered fearfully where all was simple. The Israelites thought that the men who came tothem begging for a league of brotherhood could not deceive them. It must be safe to be on good terms with these interestingstrangers. Why, look, their shoes are well-nigh worn from their feet, and patched and clouted to the last degree! Theirclothes, which we doubt not were new when they left their distant homes, are now threadbare, and their biscuit, which theytook fresh from the oven, is stale with age. It is evident, upon the face of it, that they must have come from a very remotepart of the world, and therefore a treaty with them will not interfere with the divine command. There can be no need to prayabouta case so clear. Thus the Gibeonites overreached them, as we also shall be overreached when we are so exceeding sure ofour course. Brethren, let us not be wise as to dispense with our heavenly Counsellor and Guide. Would not that be the heightof madness? It is a salutary thing to feel that your case requires you to trust the helm of your ship with the divine Pilot.It is even a blessed thing to feel that you are shut up to faith, and must by absolute trust in God throw the responsibilityofyour action upon him. I will give you an instance. Abraham, the father of the faithful, is placed in a peculiar position.God has commanded him to take his son Isaac, and offer him for a sacrifice. Here is a terrible puzzle. Here was enough tostagger any human mind. Surely it could not be right for a father to slay his son! How could it be wise to kill the son inwhom all the promises of God were vested? The more you think of the case from a father's standpoint, the more it will perplexyou.Abraham could not make any thing out of it by his judgment, but he met it all by faith. All that he could say to Isaacwas, "My son, God will provide himself a Lamb." He was thus saying to himself, "The Lord will get me out of this difficulty."He had no wisdom with which to conjecture how the affair would end: he had to cease from guessing, and just trust in his God.Abraham made no mistake in this. Oh that we could do the same! Observe that same Abraham when he goes down to Egypt. His wifeisexceedingly beautiful, and he fears that the king of Egypt will kill him in order to obtain his wife; what will he do?I can see a great many ways in which he might have warded off that evil. He was not called upon to go to Egypt at all, ifhe thereby risked his wife's honour; or, if he must go, he should have gone boldly, acknowledging his wife, and trusting bothher and himself with the Lord. Instead of that, the patriarch begins by inducing Sarah to join with him in equivocation. "Saythouart my sister." She was in some sense his sister; but it was using a word in a double sense for a deceitful purpose, andit was a pitiful thing for Abraham to do. Nor was it a prudent scheme after all: in fact it was the cause of the very troublewhich it sought to prevent. Sarah would not have been taken away from Abraham at all if Pharaoh had known that she was hiswife; so that the wise was snared by his own craftiness. The Lord graciously delivered him, but in that very act left a rootofbitterness behind to be his future plague. Pharaoh gave to him women- servants, and I doubt not among the rest was Hagar,who became the object of sin, and the source of sorrow to the household. In the fancied strength of Abraham, by which he emulatedthe craft of other Orientals, he displayed his weakness; but in the other case, where no wit or wisdom could assist him, hecast himself upon the Lord, and in his weakness he behaved like the grand man that he really was. Brothers, let us confessourselves fools, that we may be wise; for otherwise we shall fall into that other condition, of professing ourselves wise,and becoming fools. Let us ignore our wisdom, even if we have any. God alone is wise: he that trusteth either his own heartor head is a fool. Lean not to thine own understanding, but lean wholly upon the Lord; so shalt thou be established.
Further, dear friends, we shall often find that our strength will lie in patience'in extreme weakness which yields itself up to the will of God without the power or will to murmur. We sang in our hymn justnow'
"And when it seems no other chance or change
From grief can set me free,
Hope finds its strength in helplessness,
And, patient, waits on thee."
I am sure that in reference to power, either to do or to suffer rightly, we are not strong when we compliment ourselves uponour ability; and we are strong when, under a sense of absolute inability, we depend wholly upon God. That sermon preachedin the glory of our oratory turned out to be mere husks for swine; while that discourse which we delivered in weakness, witha humble hope that God would use it, proved to be royal meat for the Lord's chosen. That work which youperformed in the vigour of your unquestioned talent came to nothing, while that quiet act which you washed with your tears,and perfumed with your prayers, will live and yield you sheaves. Creature strength brings forth nothing which has life init: only the seed which the Creator puts into the hand of our weakness will produce a harvest. It is well to be nothing: itis better still to be "less than nothing." We ought to dread a sense of capacity, for it will render us incapable; but a senseofutter incapacity apart from God is a fit preparation for being used by the Lord. "Unto them that have no might he increasethstrength."
So it is in bearing as well as acting. If we say concerning sickness, "I shall never be impatient. I can bear it like a stoic."What if that? You will then have done no more than many have done before you, with no great gain to themselves or to others.But if, bowing your head before the Lord, you wait his sovereign will, and say, "Lord help me. If thy left hand shall smiteme, let thy right hand sustain me. I am willing to drink this bitter cup, saying, 'Not as I will,but as thou wilt.' Lord, help me!"'you shall bear up triumphantly, and come out of the furnace refined, to the praiseand the glory of your God. When you fancy that you are strong to suffer, you will fail; but in conscious weakness you willbe enabled to play the man.
I have now done with the text, as I have turned it upside down. May God bless it to any here who feel high and mighty, bycausing it to put them in their proper place.
II. Now, let us take our text THE RIGHT WAY UPWARDS. "When I am weak, then am I strong." "When" and "then" are the two pivotsof the text'the hinges upon which it turns.
"When I am weak." What does that mean? It means when the believer is consciously weak, when he painfully feels, and distinctly recognizes that he is weak, then he is strong. In truth, we are always weak, whetherwe know it or not; but when we not only believe this to be the fact, but see it to be the fact'then it is that we are strong.When it is forced home upon us, that we are less than nothing and vanity'when our very soul echoes and re-echoes that word,"Without me ye can do nothing."'then it is that we are strong.
When he is growingly weak. Yes, for he sees his own weakness more and more clearly as he advances: as he grows stronger in faith he is much more consciousof the weakness of the flesh. I talked about my weakness from this platform five-and- twenty years ago; but I stand here andtremble under it now to a far greater degree than I did in my younger and more vigourous time. I knew it three-and-thirtyyears ago, when I first spoke to you, but I did not know it as Iknow it now. I was then weak, and I owned it: but I am now weak, and groan about it almost involuntarily. Yes, and I sometimessing because of my weakness, learning to glory in my infirmities because the power of Christ doth rest upon me. When we aregrowingly weak, when we become weaker and weaker, when we seem to faint into a deeper swoon than ever as to our own strength,till death is written upon every power that we once thought we had, and we feel that we can do absolutely nothing apartfrom the Holy Spirit, then we are strong indeed.
We are strong, too, when we feel painfully weak. It is well when we mourn because we are so weak, and cry out to ourselves, "My weakness, my weakness, woe unto me! WhenI would do good, evil is present with me. When I would rise to heaven, the body of this death detains me. I would do greatthings for God, but I have no might. Alas for my weakness!" At such a time we are really rising, and are bringing most gloryto God. These are growing pains'agonies such asnone know but the truly and growingly spiritual. A painful weakness is strength. It may seem a paradox, but it is true.
We are strong when we are contritely weak. When we confess that much of our weakness is our fault'a weakness which we ought to have overcome'even then we have in thatweakness a real strength. The sort of weakness that makes a man say, "I cannot be any stronger, I am doing my best," is notstrength but folly; but that weakness which makes you lament your failures and deplore your shortcomings, has in it a holystimulus and force. That weakness which makes youdissatisfied with all you are and all you do, is goading you on to better and stronger things. If you feel that even whenmost earnest you have not prayed as you could wish, there is evidently strength in your desires, and your desires are prayers.If after any service you pour forth showers of penitential tears because the service was imperfect, there is evidently a strongsoul of obedience within you. When you can neither repent, nor believe, nor love as you wish to do, you are repenting,believing, and loving with a strength which is more true than apparent. It is the will with which we act which is thestrength of the action; and when the will is so powerful that it makes us mourn because we cannot find how to perform itsbidding, then are we strong according to the divine measurement of strength. Contrite weakness is spiritual strength.
When a man is thoroughly weak'not only partially, but altogether weak'then is he strong. When apart from the Lord Jesus, he is utter weakness, and nothingmore'then it is that he is strong. Let me persuade you to make a full confession of weakness to the Lord. Say, "Lord, I cannotdo what I ought to do: I cannot do what I want to do: I cannot do what I used to do: I cannot do what other people do: I cannotdo what I mean to do: I cannot do what I am sure Ishall do: I cannot do what I feel impelled to do; and over this sinful weakness I mourn." Then add, "Lord, I long to servethee perfectly, yet I cannot do it. Unless thou help me I can do nothing aright. There will be no good in my actions, my words,my feelings, or my desires, unless thou continue to fill me with thine own holy energy. Lord, help me! Lord, help me!" Brother,you are strong while you plead in that fashion. You can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth you; and he willstrengthen you, now that you are emptied of self. How true it is, "When I am weak, then am I strong!"
I have brought out the "when." Now lend me your ears and hearts for just a minute, while I bring out the "then." "Then am I strong." When is that?
Why, a man is strong when he is consciously weak, because now he has reached the truth. He really is weak; and if he doesnot know that he is so, he is under the influence of a falsehood. Now a lie is a thing of weakness. Lying strength is allfluff and foam: a mere appearance, a mockery, a delusion. Nothing hinders from getting the reality like contentment with amere appearance. The true heart is heartily sick of shows and shams, and it cries, "Lord, help me to get ridof these shadows! Help me to come at the truth! Help me to deal with realities!" When you are made to feel your utterweakness you are on sure ground of truth' unpleasant truth, no doubt, yet sure truth. You are now on safe ground touchingfundamentals, and making sure work. What you now do will be soundly done. All the while that we keep building on a sandy made-upfoundation, we are piling up that which will, in all probability, come down even faster than we put it up. While the rottenrubbish remains on the spot, you cannot do anything worth doing; but if that accumulation can be carted away, there willseem to be a great hole, but you will get down to the real bottom, and get a foundation; and then what you build will be worthputting up, because it will stand. Therefore, a man becomes strong when he is consciously weak, because he is on the truth,and is not being flattered by false hopes.
Next, he will be strong because he will only go with a commission to support him. He will not be eager to run without being sent. He says within himself, when he proposes a service to himself, "No, I amtoo weak to undertake anything of my own head." He will wait for a call. This is not the kind of man that will climb up intoa pulpit, and from a dizzy brain pour out nonsense. He will not crave to lead, for he feels that he needs much help even tofollow. He feelshimself too weak to set up for a master in Israel. This is not the kind of man that will venture into argument with scepticsfor the fun or for the glory of the thing. Oh, no; he is too weak for that. He says, "If I am called to defend the faith,I will do it in God's strength, hoping that it will be given me in the same hour what I shall speak. If I am called to preach,I will preach, and nobody shall stop me; for the Lord will be with my mouth. But, you see, until the man is conscious of hisown weakness, he will run without being sent; and there is nobody so weak as that man. No one so weak as the man who hasno commission from God, and no promise of help from him. Such a man will be thinking of this, and thinking of that, and runningfor this, that, and the other, because he has a lot of waste energy which he wants to use somewhere or somehow. Could we oncesee him consciously weak we should hear him say, "Here am I, send me!" in answer to the question, "Whom shall I send?" Thenhe would not go a warfare at his own charges, but he would draw upon the all-sufficiency of God, and find himself equalto every emergency.
The man who is consciously weak is strong, next, because of the holy caution that he will be sure to use. He will be on his guard, because he does not feel able to cope with adversaries. He will ask for a convoy for his littlebarque, for he is aware of pirates. If this weak man has to pass through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, depend upon ithe will carry in his hand the weapon of All-prayer, like a drawn sword. The man that has strength goes hurrying on overhedge and ditch, and soon comes into mischief; but the consciously weak pilgrim keeps to the high-road, and travels carefully;and hence he is strong. Fear is a notably good housekeeper: she may not keep a luxurious table, but she always locks the doorsat night, and takes care of all under her charge. Holy caution begets prudence; and prudence, by fostering vigour, and cryingfor heavenly aid, becomes strength.
Moreover, when a man is weak, then is he strong, because he is sure to pray, and prayer is power. The man who laments his weakness is sure to cry to the strong for strength. The more his weakness presseson him, the more he will pray. While he can do without his God he will do without his God; but when his own weakness becomesutter and entire, and he is ready to perish, then he turns unto his Lord, and is made strong. The utterly weak cry out untoGod as nobodyelse does. He is too weak to play at praying: he groans, he sighs, he weeps. In his abject weakness he prevails, as Jacobdid. He wrestled all night; but now at last the angel has touched the hollow of his thigh, and made his sinew shrink, andhe cannot wrestle any longer. What will he do now? He falls; and as he falls he grasps his antagonist, and holds him fast,crying, "I will not let thee go except thou bless me." As much to say, "I cannot wrestle with thee, I cannot try another fall;but Ican and will hold thee fast. The dead weight of my weakness makes me hold thee as an anchor holds a ship. I will not letthee go except thou bless me."
The weaker a man is in himself the stronger he is in prayer, if he makes use of his weakness as an appealing argument'"Lord,if I were strong, thou mightest leave me. Do not leave me, for I am weakness itself. I am the feeblest child in all thy family,leave me not, neither forsake me. If thou leavest any, leave not thy poor dying infant, that can hardly wail out its griefs."Weakness, as a plea with God in prayer, becomes a source of strength.
When we are weak we are strong, again, because then we are driven away from self to God. All strength is in God, and it is well to come to the one solitary storehouse and source of might. There is no power apartfrom God. As long as you and I look to the creature, we are looking to a cracked, broken cistern, that holds no water; butwhen we know that it is broken, and that there is not a drop of water in it, then we hasten to the great fountain and well-head.Whilewe rest in any measure upon self, or the creature, we are standing with one foot on the sand; but when we get the rightaway from human nature because we are too weak to have the least reliance upon self whatever, then we have both feet on therock, and this is safe standing. If thou believest in the living God, and if all thine own existence is by believing, thoulivest at a mighty rate. But if thou believest in God in a measure, and if, at the same time, thou trustest thyself in a measure,thou art living at a dying rate, and half the joy which is possible to thee is lost. Thou are taking in bread with onehand, and poison with the other: thou art feeding thy soul with substance and with shadow, and that makes a sorry mixture.When the shadow is clean taken away, and thou hast nothing but the substance, then art thou a strong man, fed upon substantialmeat.
Last of all, dear friends, I believe that, when a man is weak, he becomes strong to a large extent, because his weakness compels him to concentrate all his faculties.
A sense of weakness brings out all the forces of a resolute spirit, and leads him to call in all the energy within his reach.When I have preached to you in extreme weakness, as I have often done, when I have afterwards read the sermon, I have beenmuch more satisfied with it than I have been with others in which I felt more pleasure at the time.
God helps us most when we most need his help; and, besides that, the man himself is, by his weakness, forced to use himselfright up. When a man feels himself to be rather a large vessel, he puts in the tap somewhere near the top, and only a smallsupply flows out to the people; but when he is, in his own feelings, like a poor little cask with only a small supply in it,he puts the tap right down at the bottom, and permits all that is in the barrel to flow forth. Many apoor, weak brother, who says all the little that he knows, give forth more instruction than the learned divine who onlyfavours his people with a small portion of his vast stores. When a man, in serving God, spends himself to the last farthing,he will often far more enrich his hearers than the man of ten talents who uses his resources with a prudent parsimony. Dearbrother, it will often be a good thing for you to feel, "Now, God helping me, I must do my very utmost at this time. I havesolittle ability that every faculty within me must be wide awake, and serve God at its best." Thus your weakness will arouseyou, and set you on fire, and, by the blessing of God, it will be the means of gaining you strength.
Very well, then, let us pick up our tools and go to our work rejoicing, feeling'Well, I may be weaker, or I may be strongerin myself, but my strength is in my God. If I should ever become stronger, then I must pray for a deeper sense of weakness,lest I become weak through my strength. And if I should ever become weaker than I am, then I must hope and believe that Iam really becoming stronger in the Lord. Whether I am weak or strong, what matters it? He who never failsand never changes will perfect his strength in my weakness, and this is glory to me. Amen.